So i understand some people are not religious or catholic, but for me, God is the only one that makes me feel like things will actually get better, because in the end, They do. So my world is falling apart and I'm sitting in church thinking, whats dragged a screw up like me here? And I just listen to the prayers, like they are talking to me, and then this smile finds its way on my face. And i feel so positive, like i know if i work hard enough my work ill pay off. Then there is the challenge of having to know when and how far to cross the line. I still need a life in order to "succeed" but there is no way i can when people put me down for the things i don't even claim. For example, "Hey Allie, if you don't respect others, others won't respect you." according to Sonya? Yeah..Sonya. At first I am going, "Wait what?" Then i realize...talking about Zach just makes me down to his level, even though he does worse then me, what i do is just bad enough. And i think about it, I really don't hate anyone. People might hurt me, but Hate is not what i feel toward them. Hate is a strong word. My moral for my troubles, take everything in with gratitude.
Be Strong. Be Independent. Don't be so hard on yourself, or so negative. Be Happy. And Be Thankful for all you have, no matter if you have a religion or not. We are all Human.
Maybe Someday....I'll have all the answers.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
RE:RE:RE:RE:RE: Bombs away
Okay, so this topic has gone way out of control. And Brit is regretting bringing it up. and We all have our differences. But your right, everyone hides something, everyone has problems. My opinions come from what i have been through. And i am sure you know. It doesn't always have to be an effect of family...friends can hurt you a lot to. Which is why i am way happier this year. But i have major trust issues. And you have to understand, i am who i am. I am sure a lot of people can agree with both sides. Like i said, we all have our differences. And i really liked this actually. It came to me, that this is a way of learning about each other, how we think. But with my trust issues...I can not tell from lies to truth. From sarcasm to seriousness. Which is why sometimes i keep things inside when i can't say whats bothering me. And if i still don't want to bring it up i will either be very mad so you don't talk to me. Or very quite, so you don't notice me.
But most girls in my grade are fake, trust me. I can point them out. But that's their flaw, so it isn't my problem. I was just having you think about it. About the J-hall kids. They aren't too bad, like you i do stand up for them. But when you think about it...they are different. But that isn't bad. Which brings a new question to mind. Why can't people just mind their own business and accept everyone as humans? Everyone follows there own path..there is no leaders to the game of LIFE. It may bring me up as a hypocrite to ask that, but I am also human, and i do have my opinions. But i can change when i think about it, and i just want to learn. I do want to change the world one day...but i feel like i am not getting anywhere without support.
Drugs might not be "Bad" but what happens while your under the relaxation you may never know. And true i don't know. But if it wasn't bad, they wouldn't recommend that people should stop or never even start. And from t.v. shows, movies (you can learn a lot), and people i have talked to that used to do stuff. You think your happy with it now, but you will regret it.
Again, my opinions and values are different. Due to the fact that my believes are different. And i am a catholic. But sometimes, to be heard...You have to use your voice.
Maybe Someday....I'll have all the answers.
But most girls in my grade are fake, trust me. I can point them out. But that's their flaw, so it isn't my problem. I was just having you think about it. About the J-hall kids. They aren't too bad, like you i do stand up for them. But when you think about it...they are different. But that isn't bad. Which brings a new question to mind. Why can't people just mind their own business and accept everyone as humans? Everyone follows there own path..there is no leaders to the game of LIFE. It may bring me up as a hypocrite to ask that, but I am also human, and i do have my opinions. But i can change when i think about it, and i just want to learn. I do want to change the world one day...but i feel like i am not getting anywhere without support.
Drugs might not be "Bad" but what happens while your under the relaxation you may never know. And true i don't know. But if it wasn't bad, they wouldn't recommend that people should stop or never even start. And from t.v. shows, movies (you can learn a lot), and people i have talked to that used to do stuff. You think your happy with it now, but you will regret it.
Again, my opinions and values are different. Due to the fact that my believes are different. And i am a catholic. But sometimes, to be heard...You have to use your voice.
Maybe Someday....I'll have all the answers.
RE:RE:RE: Bombs away
Rage! alright, so Brandon. Let us debate.
True this generation the young adults are ruling, but it doesn't make it right. And people try to help each other out...if they care enough. Like yeah i don't like the things you do. Yeah they are wrong. and Yeah i will try to stop you. Loose all your respect for me...see if i care. But that's your lose not mine, because i was just trying to find the best for you. And if you had any respect for me at all like i do for you, you wouldn't get all worked up about it. STOP DOING DRUGS STOP SMOKING AND SELLING. your ass will be in jail before 18. and you won't even live to 30 so don't think even about 40.
VIOLENCE.. i never said it will stop. It should, but it won't. True, My single viewpoint won't change the millions of opposing views out there but the only person i know opposing are the ones that are victims. Violence is not the answer though, it always leads to getting in trouble. Whatever it is, there will always be disagreements, and there isn't anything anyone can do to stop it.
And about the whole not fake thing. If people have secrets doesn't make them fake. Yeah everyone has something to hide, but people are just trying to find the place they fit. And when they don't or when they want to fit with a few people and they aren't like..then they are fake. You can't just put them in a stereotype as fake with what they hide. They just aren't what they act like they are. Like lets bring someone who is way fake into this, Emily Menge, She talks to Alina and turns around and talks like shit. Or this girl named Abby W. She dresses in preppy cloths and tries to fit in but everyone knows she really isn't anything she thinks she is. You can lie just to be better then everyone and yeah, you would be fake. You really didn't understand what the point i was trying to make, and we do have different views. Your liberal I'm more conservative. Bit honestly, if people LIKE YOU weren't so stubborn and stupid, maybe yeah I could change the world, with your help.
And about crowds, yeah there are good and bad crowds, mostly when you have the same interest you hang around eachother, i dont know why the hell we talk, but we do. But people who want change, people who belive in the same thing, people who are not out of control, usually end up in a group. and about hidding things, everyone has a story, everyone has a problem. So do i, but i am not fake. I am who i am. You have to understand because i am sure YOU DON'T KNOW.
And you're right, i wouldn't know about being High, and really i don't care about it. It doesn't cross my mind, its not the right way to relax no matter how "good" it is. You think it's good till it kills you, so many teens die each year from smoking, alcohol and drugs. Don't talk about respect until you respect yourself. Cause your blog is straight up bullshit and standing up for your druggy ass.
And actually, your post offended me. And it did piss me off. so lets end it here, people think for themselves. Sometimes opinions have to be heard tho.
Maybe Someday....I'll have all the answers.
True this generation the young adults are ruling, but it doesn't make it right. And people try to help each other out...if they care enough. Like yeah i don't like the things you do. Yeah they are wrong. and Yeah i will try to stop you. Loose all your respect for me...see if i care. But that's your lose not mine, because i was just trying to find the best for you. And if you had any respect for me at all like i do for you, you wouldn't get all worked up about it. STOP DOING DRUGS STOP SMOKING AND SELLING. your ass will be in jail before 18. and you won't even live to 30 so don't think even about 40.
VIOLENCE.. i never said it will stop. It should, but it won't. True, My single viewpoint won't change the millions of opposing views out there but the only person i know opposing are the ones that are victims. Violence is not the answer though, it always leads to getting in trouble. Whatever it is, there will always be disagreements, and there isn't anything anyone can do to stop it.
And about the whole not fake thing. If people have secrets doesn't make them fake. Yeah everyone has something to hide, but people are just trying to find the place they fit. And when they don't or when they want to fit with a few people and they aren't like..then they are fake. You can't just put them in a stereotype as fake with what they hide. They just aren't what they act like they are. Like lets bring someone who is way fake into this, Emily Menge, She talks to Alina and turns around and talks like shit. Or this girl named Abby W. She dresses in preppy cloths and tries to fit in but everyone knows she really isn't anything she thinks she is. You can lie just to be better then everyone and yeah, you would be fake. You really didn't understand what the point i was trying to make, and we do have different views. Your liberal I'm more conservative. Bit honestly, if people LIKE YOU weren't so stubborn and stupid, maybe yeah I could change the world, with your help.
And about crowds, yeah there are good and bad crowds, mostly when you have the same interest you hang around eachother, i dont know why the hell we talk, but we do. But people who want change, people who belive in the same thing, people who are not out of control, usually end up in a group. and about hidding things, everyone has a story, everyone has a problem. So do i, but i am not fake. I am who i am. You have to understand because i am sure YOU DON'T KNOW.
And you're right, i wouldn't know about being High, and really i don't care about it. It doesn't cross my mind, its not the right way to relax no matter how "good" it is. You think it's good till it kills you, so many teens die each year from smoking, alcohol and drugs. Don't talk about respect until you respect yourself. Cause your blog is straight up bullshit and standing up for your druggy ass.
And actually, your post offended me. And it did piss me off. so lets end it here, people think for themselves. Sometimes opinions have to be heard tho.
Maybe Someday....I'll have all the answers.
Monday, December 1, 2008
RE: Bombs away.
Okay so this one goes out to Britney.
Talking about war. The person who invented bombs most likely was not a nice person. And you are right, that could happen. But countries have wars for "There people" so here is what I'm saying, it would not make any sense to your theory of everyone bombing each other...plus only one side would die. Because while one side is being bombed it was most likely plotting a bombing. But it was taken care of before they had the chance. Plus bombs and war are not what are best for people. And you are right. Guns don't kill people, people kill people. People are the ones holding guns in the first place. I don't think you see a gun grow arms and legs wear all black and go on a rampage. for all those people that HAVE died from society's madness. R.I.P.
And the media does show all the violence, Every show you turn to is not like comedy anymore, no more George Lopez or just family oriented. It's all C.S.I. and deaths and News and rape. And you think its all funny? Its not. But i think people are starting to realize how bad this era is becoming. There is a store at the mall full of knifes and swords AND SELLS TO MINORS. This kid i know was walking around with a necklace that has a hidden real knife. He think its bad ass but its not. It is dangerous. Honestly, i always hear this place is better then that. Boarding school, public, private, catholic. Wherever you look there is violence and there is those bad kids that are well hidden underneath there masks of looking innocent. No one is normal anymore. You walk around school, teens deal drugs under the tables. They gamble and spend ALL their money on stuff that WON'T help the economy...just help themselves.
If Bombs won't kill everyone, I don't think it will make a difference. The same amount of hearts will stop beating.
I used to believe in the end of the World coming soon, i try to prevent it. But i can't alone. No one cares about anything anymore but GLAMOR....well I will tell you one thing...When your dead, you wont be so Glamorous.
Maybe someday...I'll have all the answers.
Talking about war. The person who invented bombs most likely was not a nice person. And you are right, that could happen. But countries have wars for "There people" so here is what I'm saying, it would not make any sense to your theory of everyone bombing each other...plus only one side would die. Because while one side is being bombed it was most likely plotting a bombing. But it was taken care of before they had the chance. Plus bombs and war are not what are best for people. And you are right. Guns don't kill people, people kill people. People are the ones holding guns in the first place. I don't think you see a gun grow arms and legs wear all black and go on a rampage. for all those people that HAVE died from society's madness. R.I.P.
And the media does show all the violence, Every show you turn to is not like comedy anymore, no more George Lopez or just family oriented. It's all C.S.I. and deaths and News and rape. And you think its all funny? Its not. But i think people are starting to realize how bad this era is becoming. There is a store at the mall full of knifes and swords AND SELLS TO MINORS. This kid i know was walking around with a necklace that has a hidden real knife. He think its bad ass but its not. It is dangerous. Honestly, i always hear this place is better then that. Boarding school, public, private, catholic. Wherever you look there is violence and there is those bad kids that are well hidden underneath there masks of looking innocent. No one is normal anymore. You walk around school, teens deal drugs under the tables. They gamble and spend ALL their money on stuff that WON'T help the economy...just help themselves.
If Bombs won't kill everyone, I don't think it will make a difference. The same amount of hearts will stop beating.
I used to believe in the end of the World coming soon, i try to prevent it. But i can't alone. No one cares about anything anymore but GLAMOR....well I will tell you one thing...When your dead, you wont be so Glamorous.
Maybe someday...I'll have all the answers.
ME vs. MYSELF
So i have a lot of time on my hands. And i think way to much...Too deep into things. And it just never turns out right. Today i did things a little differently, i went home like usual, but instead of homework or eating or sleeping...I just sat there. yes i was thinking. Too much. And i needed it to be stopped. But i will tell you what was bothering me, THE WORLD is bothering me. Or maybe its just me. Has it occurred to you that we are the wasted youth. Kids of the future...but not really. They are highering education levels for people to graduate. The economy is dying. People spend most of there time being fake and something they are not. Conceited, self centered, selfish. Its all about ME. They even teach you in school about how its wrong. But usual when these discussions are held, you hear the ones who speak up the ones that feel the shame, or they want to put in there thoughts, or they are just nerds and want to show off to the teachers...but you got to love them nerds. AND THEN you hear little side conversations about how everyone spent their weekend partying...smoking..."rolling a blunt" and relaxing? That doesn't sound too relaxing to me... I am not complaining though. I found a great group this year. Although they are all vegetarians and read more books then i do they are really fun to hang out with, and not a bad crowd. They change me in ways more then they will ever know...Britney, Emily, Maribeth, Ben, and Kat are my Heroes. They are the type of people...that are true friends. AND ARE NOT FAKE. which is the best part. And we can just have fun being legal and we have music and interests in common. Which is the one cool thing about our high school...there is a place for everyone.
BUT ANYWAYS...I will admit they made me change my mind about how i stereotyped the youth now...but still. Some girls and guys out there are way to out of control. But now that i think about...there always is a few people who you can count on no matter what. (see...i think way too much)
And i am going to turn this whole blog around...and just tell them, Thank you :) and that I love you guys <3 style="" size="2" face="courier new">Maybe someday...I'll have all the answers.
BUT ANYWAYS...I will admit they made me change my mind about how i stereotyped the youth now...but still. Some girls and guys out there are way to out of control. But now that i think about...there always is a few people who you can count on no matter what. (see...i think way too much)
And i am going to turn this whole blog around...and just tell them, Thank you :) and that I love you guys <3 style="" size="2" face="courier new">Maybe someday...I'll have all the answers.
Think of it this way...
People do not show everything to you. Unless they trust you most, which in my case alot of people can trust me. I won't turn my back on you if you need me. But the thing is...I can give you advice but its only useful when you use it. Like (Blank) came to me and asked me to help with her troubles...which weren't her own but were troubling her. So i told her to talk to (Blanks troubled person). She said she would...later texted me saying she would wait till later. Well (Blank) waiting until later might make things worse. But what i am wondering...if so many people i help say they would help me too...i don't get it. I might not show things...but instead of usual conversations of "Hey what's up?" "N2m" "K Bye." why dont you asked Hows life once in a while. and if you mean it, i might tell you. The only person i have got nagging me all the time other than my mom, is devon. And he always asks what's wrong when THERE IS NOTHING WRONG!
Think of it this way...what's the point of having friends when they are just as distant as the strangers you aquient with everyday.
Maybe someday...I'll have all the answers.
Think of it this way...what's the point of having friends when they are just as distant as the strangers you aquient with everyday.
Maybe someday...I'll have all the answers.
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